Dependence


Sometimes it takes getting away from something to actually know why you were away from it in the first place.

Then going back thinking back to all the wonderful times you had in that spot

But suddenly realizing that it was never for you in the first place.

Every time you are back, giving you the satisfaction you are in the right place

Only for a time was that for you

Yes you'll always have memories of the good times and the bad

But what is it really that you are in life for you to accomplish?

All that you thought you knew for that split moment slowly slips away

Then going back you think...¦How?

How is it that I've come this far?

Where is it that I'm going next?

Getting excited that there is actually something more than what you have experienced

Sometimes also lonely because maybe you are in the situation of having no friends

Having faith that it's only going to be for a season

Or is it?

Friends might come as a distraction to the very thing that you are in that place to accomplish

Choosing the right path isn't always the easiest

Realizing that the only person you really have to count on is God

In those times of desperation no one else is there besides Him

In the state of loneliness getting stronger God knowing that he is the only thing that you have to cry out to

Giving you the strength to depend on him more

When all else fails and no one else is around and it's just you and yourself

God is sitting right next to you wondering why you haven't talked to him

The feeling of being lost will only last as long as you want it

When God again is there thinking if only she will cry out to me

This path he has you on is hard and he never would have put you through it if he didn't think you could handle it

Take it in the good times and the bad

Going to a place that is unheard of

Slowly moving in a total regeneration

Refueling for another place and direction

That tank does get empty

Just let his heavenly presence fill you up more and more


Written by Tiffany Langenes

July 8, 2004

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