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Popularity is one thing that everyone wants

Having friends is one thing that everyone needs

Letting your social groups get bigger

However, your integrity, it's getting smaller

Thinking that you are strong

When its too late knowing that you weren't

Are they going to like me if I'm not like them?

Seeking direction, in places to go

Not getting the answer you want from your friends, you call friends

Acquaintances are more like it

Do you actually know who your true friends are?

Do you get the feeling that sometimes you have to put on a show?

Why would you put yourself through the trouble?

Keep on going, searching for someone to talk to

Not knowing that there is a person knocking at your door wanting to come in

Telling you that he wants a relationship

Hurting for you when you hurt

Crying for you when you cry

Feeling despair when you feel despair

All the while going through the emotions

You have no idea that he is there

How can I get back to what I used to be

I'll never be good enough to live up to someone's expectations

Tried to please

Tried to love

At school wondering if friends are really worth it

Going home with no one around

Feeling lonely all over again

Coming to be a never-ending system

You can't seem to get out of

Trying to stop

When stopped…where would you go or turn?

Would you go in the opposite direction?

Would you stay neutral for a while?

Not feeling anything

Drugs are the answer you hear everybody say!

Tried them yourself wondering just why other people like it so much when all you did was throw up

Making love to someone that you won't remember in the morning until the test results become positive

Noticing that the world around you is so unclean

Knowing yourself, you're unclean

Wanting to take a shower but finding out there isn't a hose

No where to turn, No where to go

Friends aren't worth it,

Neither is having fun as the world sees it

Coming to know the realization that things aren't the way its supposed to be

Hoping soon to be free

Feeling so down because everyone hates me

Asking myself, what have I become?

I know who Jesus is,

I know he is there for I'm ashamed for what I've shown

No one else has been able to help me

Maybe giving Jesus a chance will save me

Just wishing someone to love me

I know I've made mistakes

I know its not going to be a piece of cake

I'm willing to try

But Jesus please help before I die!!!!

For you are my one hearts cry

Thank you, for loving me

Thank you, for not giving up on me

Not thinking of me as a waste of time

But letting me know in my prime

There is a hope,

There is a line

That I can call on anytime

Written By: Tiffany Langenes

4-21-04

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